Monday, January 3
i just wanna clarify why i'm feeling so shitty and unreasonable today. 4e6.. i love you. i miss you. it sucks walking into a new building, with its whole newness pressing down on you. it sucks turning around and knowing i won't find you. janet's usually in front. it sucks knowing nothing and nobody can ever replace you. i don't even want to try to make new friends. looking at them, i wonder why i never realised there were other sorts of people. i've been so protected. rgps, smss. best class. never saw any other type. hc's a good sch. but the people.. they are so different. i feel watched. i feel trapped. i feel lonely, like i don't belong, a jellyfish floating in the sea, stinging others because i don't want to be stung.
i love you. don't ever let our spirit die. already i am fading into nothing.
it must've been love.
7:40 pm
xoxo
